I hadn’t blogged in a while. I started a few days ago, but all I could squeeze out was a few scratch-the-surface memories and thoughts.
I knew this post was coming. Lurking in the back of my scattered little mind. The moving post. I have been inching across the diving board toward the water for months now. It’s time to dive in. Make our move. In 2 weeks. My house is half packed. It’s sold. Sigh. I talked pretty big. No tears allowed. I only talked about the good and excitement in all of it. Bright, shiny, and new. Now, looking over the edge, I would like to baaaaack up, right down into my nice comfy familiar pool chair. Have you been there? But you can’t backup. There’s a line. You have to jump. So I am standing here crying on the edge of the diving board hoping it will just go away.
I don’t want to be the kid who cries at the edge of the diving board that someone puts out of their misery by giving me a swift shove over the edge.
I know I’m not dying, or even moving very far. But I’ll miss my friends. My home. My familiarity.
And in I go! (envision me gracefully twirling through the air, a couple of flips and just the tiniest splash.)