A few of my favorite things…

They named it well.  My lashes are very stiletto-like. Love.

Somehow these make my writing look prettier.

Cannot live without the manipulator.  The smell alone is worth the money. Not to mention it’s awesome.

Shade clothing.  I think my wardrobe is 50% shade.  This little beauty has been on my list for a few months now.

Love AE all around.  Best sweats in the world.  And of course the jeans.

I have skinny feet.  Converse makes skinny shoes.  My feet like these shoes.

Umm.  Pollo Grande.  I get it every time.  I think I will go there today.

Often times twizzlers and milk duds make up my night time snack.  And afternoon snack, and well, all the time.

Simple little flowers that need no fluff for beauty. 

Yes, I like Pink.  I know.  It’s terrible.  I buy all the clean versions of her songs.  It’s the rebel  deeeeeep inside me. 

Chrysler 300

I have no idea why I love this car.  It just caught my eye and stuck.  I’ve never actually driven one, or even seen the inside of one.  But I like it.

Halle-stinkin-lujah

I love to run.  Well,  I loved to run.  Until it became a chore and requirement. I hope to regain that love again. I signed up to race the Ragnar del sol this coming weekend with 11 other crazies.   I had grand images in my mind of the adventure it would be.  (And it will be! Have fun!)  But I can’t even begin to tell you how grateful I am to have found someone to run in my place.  I tend to be a bit on the flaky side, so I can’t duck behind excuses all day, but it was just really bad timing for the craziness I call my life.  So, to Laurie Glade Janelle and Brett:  Good luck, have fun and be careful!

Glorious greasy goodness

Jason mentioned I was racking up points with my Sunday menu.  Fried chicken strips, french fries and a homemade cheesecake.  I know, I could hear my little heart sputtering as I licked my fingers. 

While the children inhaled (we had to tell them to sit in their chairs and finished chewing before they refilled their plates) the food at dinner, Lainy between bites said, “mom, you are the bestest mom all the way to planet Pluto!”  Jayce quickly responded, “No Lainy, Pluto isn’t a planet, it’s a moon.”   Well, Sonny, back when I was your age Pluto was considered a planet….

Clean and Clear and under control

Now I am no clean freak.  I don’t need vacuum lines in my carpet daily, I don’t need to see my reflection in my floors, but I am definitely happier when my house is clean.  

It has been quite a few days since I have ventured to think of cleaning my house.  Jared has been more of an attachment than I thought after his surgery.  And since he is so little and so rarely snuggles I certainly took advantage. 

And the filthier my house became, the darker my mood became. 

Yesterday the vacuum made its appearance.  I could actually feel my mood starting to lift as the dirt did.  Tonight I could feel myself starting to snap a bit at the kids, (no- you can put your own band-aid on, please just go sit in front of a movie so I can relax, and a lot of because I said so’s)  I found that as soon as I started a load of laundry and pushed start on the dishwasher, things like yes sweetheart, and of course I can hold you started to flow again. 

I knew there was a reason that Monica was my favorite on Friends.

Sleepless = Tonsil/adenoid-less

Poor little Jared had his tonsils and adenoids out this morning after several months of sleepless nights and a diagnosis of sleep apnea.  He did great.  All went well minus his crankiness coming out of anesthesia.  No faulting him there! 

Lainy has been worried about him and asked if she could see what they looked like.  I mentioned that I could look them up on the computer later.  Later came and she asked again, “Can I see a picture of Jared’s asteroids now?”

Sunday meal- the good, the bad and the ugly.

 

BEST cooking magazine.

Not the BEST doughnuts ever, but still yummy!

A childhood favorite made tonight is sausage bread.  In looking for pictures online so I didn’t have to take it back out of the fridge to snap a photo, I came across this beauty…

Gag. Cough. Ew. Jason has dubbed it Bobbitt bread.  Ha ha. 

Below is how it is supposed to look…

It’s coming down in Buckets

Our Father in Heaven has given us, His children, much more than any mortal mind can comprehend. Under His direction the Great Jehovah created this wondrous world we live in. God the Father watches over us, fills our hearts with breathtaking joy, brightens our darkest hours with blessed peace, distills upon our minds precious truths, shepherds us through times of distress, rejoices when we rejoice, and answers our righteous petitions."

Dieter F. Uchtdorf, "The Love of God," Ensign, Nov. 2009, 22

I struggle with consistency in all departments.  Discipline, eating habits, exercise, daily scripture and prayer.  It always seems as though I wait until I become depleted and desperate that I have a desire to put these things back into working action.  Each time that I do, specifically speaking of scripture study and prayer, I see and feel significant change and blessings as though they are poured and sometimes dumped onto me and my family.  Today is no exception.  My most recent beautiful blessing came in the form of a prayer by a 7 year old.  Asking that his mom have strength, and his siblings with health.  Seems pretty basic right?  That’s part of the blessing.  That I get to become aware of the small beautiful things I have been given.  An outpour of blessings doesn’t mean circumstances will change or you will be handed a free pass. Mostly, it is strength to overcome, to have gratitude and enjoy what you do have. 

Doesn’t take much

Driving to school we pass many horses.  The boys are chattering in the backseat and then I hear a burst of laughter.  Jayce is laughing and doubling over.   Through gasps of air he says,

“That horse totally farted!  I saw it’s tail go flying outward from it!” 

David, without laughter, says calmly, “Jayce, Horses just swish their tails.  It wasn’t a toot.”

The Run

Mile 1  Adrenaline

Mile 2 Exhilaration

Mile 3 Setting a pace

Mile 4 Getting winded

Mile 5 Reality sets in

Mile 6 Float on through

Mile 7 Kill

Mile 8 me

Mile 9 now

Mile 10 I cried

Mile 11 Anger and frustration

Mile 12 My family found me on the course!  A renewed determination.

Mile 13 The finish line.  Collapse. 

I finished my first 1/2 marathon this weekend.   I wasn’t going to.  I got that anxiety in my chest the day before telling me I had no choice.  I hadn’t trained in weeks.  I knew I wasn’t ready.  But I made it.  2 hours 23 minutes.   I had nothing left.  It was awful and I am so grateful I did it. And you better believe I am doing again, but I will do it prepared.

Battle of wills

For those of you who know me well enough, it won’t surprise you that this post finds me in trouble because of my all too stubborn and strong willed spirit. 

Fortunate or unfortunately (depending on the circumstance) my oldest child has echoed my willfulness.  Tonight it came to a head.  He lost his temper during a video game, and I responded by taking it away for the evening.  His tantrum grew, until he was then grounded for the following day.   It was then the battle ensued. 

His little hands began to make things fly from the countertops to the floor.  It had happened before.  Things had been broken.  My will began to bubble.  And it bubbled over right into his room, where I proceeded to take objects from his shelf and made them fly.  (Softly, just enough to teach a lesson)  but in the chaos, a much treasured little ceramic heart, just acquired from his Grammy not a week before, hit a bit too hard and broke. 

He was rightfully angry, and retaliated in a chaotic vengeful way.  Books flew from the bookshelves.  I knew I had crossed a line.  I quickly found the super glue and tried desperately to glue the broken pieces together.  There were a few splinters missing.  But it was mended.  He came in and seeing it glued back together turned and looked up at me. 

I learned one of the most powerful, regretted lessons in that moment when I said to my son,  “I'm sorry I broke your heart.”  Nothing more was said, and all was forgiven.  I knew in that moment that it was mended, but splinters were missing.

A ray of sunshine

THIS is why I can never move.  Because I have friends like these who leave beautiful sunshiny flowers on my porch when I have a tough week. 

Thank you!!!

Accentuate the positive

 

"I come to you tonight with a plea that we stop seeking out the storms and enjoy more fully the sunlight. I am suggesting that as we go through life we try to 'accentuate the positive.' I am asking that we look a little deeper for the good, that we still our voices of insult and sarcasm, that we more generously compliment virtue and effort. Now I am not asking that all criticism be silenced. Growth comes of correction. Strength comes of repentance. Wise is the man or woman who can acknowledge mistakes pointed out by others and change his or her course. "What I am suggesting is that you turn from the negativism that so permeates our modern society and look for the remarkable good among those with whom you associate, that we speak of one another's virtues more than we speak of one another's faults, that optimism replace pessimism, that our faith exceed our fears. When I was a young man and was prone to speak critically, my wise father would say: 'Cynics do not contribute. Skeptics do not create. Doubters do not achieve.' " – Gordon B Hinckley

Picking up the pieces

I’m sure they wondered where their mom went. Or rather more importantly, who this monster was who has shaken up the day. 

Today was mom-has-lost-it-better-run-while-you-can day.  It’s been a while since she has reared her ugly little head.   I assume my poor children had gotten used to her absence since they all were crying when she blew her top.  Oh, I wasn’t even making sense!  I was yelling and going off on tangents that, as they spewed from my mouth I was inwardly shaking my head thinking how ridiculous I was being.  But I couldn’t stop the train.  I imagine it got started rolling long ago plugging along, until it got going way to fast as it sometimes does.

So, this evening I will clean up my wreck and get back on track.  To my children:  So sorry my little loves.  Sorry you had to be in the wreckage. Love you.

Going without

I know going without TV isn’t really in the category of sacrifice, but I still miss it. 

It was rounding the middle of the night when I saw my husband swoosh past me pulling cords out of TV's and electronics as he went by.  I was practicing playing Mario cart without the distraction of my child kicking my butt, and mentioning how much I suck at the game.  My competitive nature needed to be able to beat that snotty little 7 year old. 

He came through yanking at near all connections to modern technology, mumbling loudly at how much of a distraction- bad prioritizing- waste of time it was and that we needed to take break.  All of my inner connections were screaming no! Gasp. But… my TiVo. But… my shows.  But… my sanity. But… my babysitter.  But… once I came to my senses I had to agree.  We as a family spent way too much time in front of mindless entertainment.

It’s been a few weeks and I still have the urge to just plop down and stare, but we have definitely gotten more done around here, you know, priorities straightening out and all.  Try it, you might surprise yourself.

(we did plug the wii back in the next week, my sanity can only handle so much)

Take what life throws

You know when you work for something, blood sweat and tears (ok, not quite) and you sacrifice to get it?  Say…  an 8 year old does chores for a whole month to earn a new baseball glove.  How will he feel about that glove?  How will he treat it?  As opposed to if your walking along in a store and just hand him a new glove and he says, hey thanks.  That glove in the 2nd scenario is going to end up left outside in the rain and ruined.  While the very same glove that was earned and worked for will be cherished and possible handed down to his son. 

Now slide life in to replace the baseball glove.  Marriage.  Children.  A home.  A church calling.  A degree.  If any of these things came as easily as we sometimes pray they will, would we value them as highly? 

I have learned this week to be grateful for my hard blessings.  They are for my good and my growth.

Wishing and hoping

My sweet little sister made me a wishing star box as part of my (very creative) Christmas present this year.  I used it.  It works!  Let me start way back nine years ago when my gift receiving shanagins began. 

Jason as sweet as he is, is scarily far from being a romantic.  Over the years, I have heard such things on Mother’s Day as “Oh. well. I didn’t know what to get so I just didn't get anything.”  Or on my birthday… “Sooo, you should go pick something out for your birthday.”  Oh he has made progress over the years, take this last Christmas for example.  He sauntered into the kitchen on Christmas Day (mind you, I reminded him several times in the weeks following that we had a $20 budget for one another)  he put his arms around me sweetly from behind, and whispered in my ear, “Your present is in the office.”  I spun around with delight plastered squarely on my face. Could it be? Then he continued his sentence… “It’s pulled up on the computer screen.  It’ll be here in a couple of weeks.”  Really?  REALLY?  Being that he bought me pearls helped the sting of forgetting to get me something until Christmas Day.  So, like I said.  Improvement. 

Back to my wishing star.  It’s a little yellow box shaped like a star and it is filled with teeny tiny slips of paper.  I stuck a wish in it last week, and it materialized right on my desk! The man checked the wishing star!  How many leaps and  bounds does that count for?   A LOT in my book! 

P.S.- Love BBW’s new ‘p.s. I love you’ collection…

Cellular Etiquette

We’ve all been there.   Behind that annoying person in front of you ordering food who can’t seem to get his order out because the guy on the other end of the phone convo says something funny.  Or the girl who is your cashier who you know isn’t supposed to be chattering away at work, scans all of your purchases, hands you your change, and you head out the door without so much as a word?  Today I had one such interaction, at church of all places.  Sitting in Gospel Doctrine class and the lady in the back row is taking a phone call!  She had cupped the phone and was doing her very best (ha!) to speak in muted tones, but I could head loud and clear the one on the other end!  I could swear our poor instructor had lost his train of thought, and I certainly wasn’t the only one who noticed.  C’mon people!  Unplug or you may find someone doing for you!

 

Grin and bear it

 

See that?  It’s a grin.  It’s appearance is rare on his little face.  I had to dig to find a picture with him smiling in it. 

I mentioned to Lainy several times before I left the kitchen to please eat her snack up to the table.   Jared came in to me quickly to share that indeed, Lainy had sauntered to the couch to munch.  I gave a quick yell, “Lainy! Get up to the table”  As I did so, I saw the slight upturn of Jared’s lip curl into a smile. 

Little Stinker. 

He enjoyed tattling a few more times,and listening to me call to her to head back to the table before Lainy called in to me, “Mom?  How do you know exactly when I am eating on the couch??”

 

Swift kick in the pants

Do-not-want-to-run. Do-not-want-to-run. Do-not-want-to-run. 

I am in a slump.  I have two HUGE races coming at the end of this month and next, and I have ZERO motivation.  I need someone to kick me or give me a good shove to wake me up. 

Evacuate the dance floor?  I think so. 

Lean on me

Jared’s car seat was out of commission and while using a side-less booster, fell asleep and the head bobbing began.  Jared, this is for you as proof of how much your sister loves you.  She sat in this uncomfortable position for 15 minutes (and still managed to watch the TV!) and kept your head from falling forward.

And my burden is light

They are a select few.  They remain consistent.  I would like very much become one of them.   I speak of those who readily volunteer their thoughts in Gospel Doctrine each Sunday afternoon.  I have a steady stream of my own thoughts but each time I resolve to make them known, my arms turn to solid concrete.  Then someone else makes their point and I inwardly kick myself because my line of thought was so much more relevant.  (ha ha)   Someday.  

And while on the subject, something that has become somewhat of a Sunday annoyance. When a teacher asks a room full of adults ‘who might volunteer for an opening or closing prayer?’   Not a hand is raised.  Of course until someone from the group steps in.  I leaned over to Jason and mentioned, no vowed to always stick my concrete hand up and never allow prayer to become a burden again.  Hey, maybe it will catch on and instead become a race.

Bittersweet

Sweet isn’t it? 

Too bad it’s forced affection.  A great form of punishment on road trips when you can’t separate them.

Hike ‘em up

I know it looks like we are walking through the land of desolation with a coyote trailing us, but in our town we call it hiking in the San Tans with our dog Flapjack.  Its about a mile from our house and we loved it.  Lainy started to complain that her legs hurt and could we please carry her about 30 seconds after we got out of the car. 

Jayce is quite the outdoorsman.  When we had gone about 45 minutes and were going to turn around to head back, he was ticked that we had not ‘been hiking’ yet.  What did he think we were doing out there?   So, Jason headed off trail and straight up the side of the mountain.  Jayce was happy.  I was not. 

Pretty cool place though.

Invites for Shell

The invitations are finished!

Shelley is due in a few short weeks and we are crossing our fingers that little Hailee stays put until then!

Lainy turns 5

 Lainy bug Lainy bug

Look how you’ve grown!

Just yesterday a baby

And today a little lady.

Your zest for life contagious

your smile wide and bright.

What would we do without you?

I love you with all my might!

Lainy, I am so grateful to be your mother.  You teach me so many things.  Never lose the joy that exudes from you in everything you do.  I love you pretty girl.  Happy Birthday!

Family trip 2009

We headed out that Friday afternoon to St George.  We got to the hotel a full 5 minutes before the bachelorette party ended.  The next morning we went the the temple sealing and the reception that night.  I wish I had taken more pictures of Mike’s restaurant-  it looked AMAZING.   

We spent 2 days there seeing a bit of Zion’s national park and then made our way up to Shannon’s in Logan.  There was a little bit of this…

And a tad of this…

And just a sprinkling of THIS! 

We celebrated mine and Lainy’s birthdays there and Jason took it upon himself to make me a special cake…

When Shannon and I left he had begun the cake, when we got home we poked around the kitchen looking for it’s hiding place, wondering why we couldn't smell it.  Jason was sitting quietly on the couch when we found the remains of batter in the trash. He started out well until while mixing noticed the weird consistency of the batter.  It was a little oily.  He doubled the oil and forgot the water.  Whoops.  I am grateful for the effort! 

We stayed with Jake and Kyra (thank you!!)   And if you remember this little guy Brenden who is not so little anymore!  We had a grand time and froze a bit more up in Washington.  Thanksgiving was spend with the Stolworthy side and it was divine. 

Lainy got quite attached to Gpa Chad this time.   Had to nearly peel her away with good-byes. 

The boys had their day with guns up on his dad’s property.  I stayed clear.  9 years and I still don’t so so well with it all. 

The trip home was 22 hours and we went straight through.  Ugh.  I was ready to jump ship. 

As you can see, the car ride took it’s toll on the kids too- not sure how we got this beauty captured. 

Silence is golden

I woke up this morning and my voice was no where to be found.  It’s nearing 9 am and I am quickly realizing the advantages to this little cold.  First, only the child who had to go to school arose early and since I couldn’t talk he followed suit and whispered himself.  In turn, the two little ones slept until 15 minutes ago when I nearly dragged them from their slumber.  They also have taken to whispering.  Whisper through breakfast, whisper to each other.   My house seems very….   reverent.  I may milk this one….

Climb every mountain

It’s been uphill.   And downhill.  We’ve gone around the hill and sometimes barreling through it.  At least my marriage has.  But here’s what I have learned so far.  As you are climbing this mountain together, stumbling and falling, helping each other up, and sometimes tripping the other with vengeance,  it is crucial to remember to stop and look around you.   Look how far you have come.  See the beauty from above and just breathe it in. 

You can’t climb mount Everest without first climbing much smaller feats.  There are days when we feel as though we did it.  We reached the top and it feels glorious!  We stop and look around us, clinging to each other in awe that we made it.  Only to turn around and see yet a larger mountain we must defeat. 

In answer to many prayers at a trial some time in my life I was given the answer that we as a couple needed to experience this in order to be prepared for what is to come.  Not all of us may need to climb mount Everest, but we sure need to be prepared to do so.

Cavemen

Mom?  Were you born in the 1900’s? 

Yup. 

Whoa.

Sheesh, he made it sound like I’m ancient!  Just in time to turn 30 I guess.

Exhaustion

Truly you know your children are tired when you are 3 for 3 in each of them climbing into bed on their own without a sound. And when 3 children are that tired, their mother is bound to be.

You scratch my back, and I’ll scratch yours.

When I was a kid I remember my dad always walking over to a corner wall and scratching his back on it.  He loved a good back scratch.   There is nothing worse than the feeling of the itch beginning in the middle of your back juuuust out of reach, and the scramble to find something or someone to scratch it for you.  Ahhhh, then the feeling of relief as they hit the spot.  

Jayce loves a good back scratch.  Lainy thinks she does, but every time you begin, her body starts to wiggle and she can’t stop the giggling.  Too ticklish.  I love a good palm scratch.   Something about the palm of my hand being scratched just relaxes me.  

Jared, being 3 has just learned the value of laying over moms lap and asking, “Can you scrape my back?”

***An hour after I posted this I came into the kitchen and Lainy had her shirt off and was frantically scratching her back on the edge of the kitchen table, telling me her back itched so bad!

Phew. I mean… Boo!

I swore this was the year I was living Halloween simply. 

And I did.  

Until 2 days before Halloween. I’m not sure what happened. I went into sew mode somehow.  Decided against the simple ghost idea and created a complete Avatar costume, the fluff to Lainy’s ladybug, and lost my fire when I got to Jared, gained control and went back to simple and dug out the ol’ cookie monster costume.  Phew. I am glad it’s over. 

We trick or treated one house and that was Gramma Jet.

Thank you Georgette! We love you! 

Then it was off to trunk or treat!

I did get a chance to gussy up a lady in our ward who wanted to go ‘Harley’. 

Jayce was such a sport to let me shave his head for the evening.  He did panic a bit when the realization set in that he had to attend school and church this way. 

Lainy and Tessa both came as bugs, which is fitting.  Those two are always buzzing around together.

It’s faces like this that make it all worth it. 

No Disco ball for the gophers!

I

found

my

RING!

Actually Jason found it tonight in his pajama pants pocket.  We have looked everywhere including my entire acre with a stinkin metal detector.  It’s like having an old friend back.  

Sigh. 

Life is good.

She doesn’t.

My sweet friend asked me last week how I did it.   Keep my house clean (ha ha), raise my kids, support a husband in school, and work 20-30 hours a week.   The truth is…  I don’t.  I can’t do it all.  Especially not at the same time.  My days are like taking a handful of balls and throw them all up in the air at the same time and then trying to catch them.  Sometimes you catch one, and all the others fall.  Once in a blue moon, you catch the majority of them and feel pretty good about yourself.  Today I caught one ball.  Two women walked out of the salon with their hair looking better than when they walked in.  It’s something right? 

• I dropped the parenting ball when my kids dumped all the macadamia nuts in the boys room, stripped all bedding off beds so they had a better jumping arena, dumped water all over the couch and jumped on it, played mermaids in the bathroom and made a real ‘ocean’, finally one fell asleep on my bed, and then peed on it. 
• I dropped the wife ball when I didn’t call my husband all day because I didn’t have the energy to support him and tell him to study hard, because I knew I just wanted to tell him to come home. 
• I dropped the cooking ball when I fed my kids coco puffs for breakfast, cheerios for lunch and Mac and cheese for dinner. 
• And well,  the clean ball was never even reached for. 

I know I know,   Wo is me.

Diamond in the rough

Jason and I was discussing my recently lost wedding ring while lazily laying in bed this morning and it went a little something like this…

“I really do love my new wedding ring,  I have had a lot of compliments on it” I say. 

He acknowledges my comment with an mmm hmm.  

Then, still being a little tired I say, “I wish had I had some sort of super power that I could feel or hear if it were nearby…”

Smiling now he  says,  “yeah I can just hear it’s little screams now.”

I am into it now,  “help me! help me you idiots I am right here!”

Jason says…  (sorry still laughing at this…)  “Yeah, it’s probably outside in the dirt and some gopher is using it as it’s disco ball.” 

I must still be so tired.

Laughter

Best compliment I’ve had in a while…

Jayce:  Mom, you laugh a lot don’t you?

Life’s too short not to!

Tree of Thanks

Last Thanksgiving I cut out a tree from cardboard and a handful of leaves and for family night we sat and wrote each thing we were thankful for on the leaves and it stayed up for a few weeks.   This year I found this tree at Michaels and bought a leaf punch and put it up when Autumn began.   I wanted to remember to be thankful a lot longer than just one night.  So, I hung a bag of leaves and a marker next to the tree and welcome anyone who enters my home to fill a leaf on my tree with what they are grateful for.  This was the first day we hung it, and it has slowly been riddled with words of thanks by many.  I hope to have a beautiful fall tree by Thanksgiving Day!

Small and Simple thing #1

Marjorie Pay Hinckley said:

Life is full of challenges.  Many of them involve balance and temperance.  Complete abstention may be easier than moderation.  It’s easier for me to completely abstain from smoking than to try and balance my day- a little for this, a little for that, a little for him, a little for her. 

Ralph Waldo Emerson expresses a majestic thought when he said: “It is easy in the world to live after the world’s opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great man is he who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude.”

I have been struggling with balance in my life.  Trying to decide what I should try and balance in, or if I should completely abstain from it.  It was a few days ago that a little 5x5 inch purple book on my bookshelf seemed to call to me.  Sister Hinckley's book entitled ‘Small and Simple Things’.   In it I found this thought.  I read it and reread it and have repeated it to myself over the course of the last couple of days and each time it becomes more clear to me what a simple practice it is, and yet so difficult for me. 

San Francisco

Thank you to the Hambly’s for letting me bombard them for a day and being such great friends.   I love you guys.

I wish I didn’t live so far away from my dear friend! 

And I’m sorry, is she not just to die for?  I had the day to spend with these two ladies, and a part of the day to share with the boys of the fam, who are equally as wonderful!  (but not as photographed apparently!) 

Thank you to my parents for feeding me, housing me, and allowing me to tag along.  I love you guys.  

YES. That is the golden gate bridge.  I went over it.  Twice!  It was pretty cool. 

Ok, and the reason for this trip in the first place was to attend Jess and Tami’s Engagement party and I didn’t even bring my camera to it!  Sheesh. 

So, it was beautiful and filled with ALOT of aunts, uncles, cousins and friends.  They were all so kind and gracious.   Jess and Tami looked stunning-

(like Arabian Princess Barbie and Ken.  Seriously.) 

Ok, but without all the fluff.   Great company, great food, and glad to be home!

At the cracking of dawn

I put the kids to bed early last night.  Jayce was up at the crack of dawn at 5:30.   He came flying in holding a plate of goodies that the Phantom Ghost had left on our porch last night! (Thank you!)  I of course told him to go away and let me sleep.  It was when I finally (at 6:45) woke and found my kitchen in a bit of a mess that I realized the potential of my sweet children.  Jared had changed his own clothes (into another pair of jammies, but still) Jayce had gotten dressed, made a valiant attempt at making pancakes (with flour) and all were coloring at the table very quietly together.  Well, truthfully Jayce was coloring while the other two begged to help him.  I actually had a glimmer of hope that someday Jayce might be able fill the role of babysitter.   My dreams came crashing down when he came over and told me his pants felt weird and kept slipping down in the back.  

Jayce.  Your jeans are on backwards.

Very positive negative

 Conversation between Jayce and Wyatt:

Jayce:  My mom is going away this weekend with my dad.  She’s going there to get pregnant. 

Jayce and I had a little chat a week or so ago about babies.  I am guessing he has thought about it a bit since then.   We had another little chat tonight about mom not being pregnant and how it all happens.  (In case anyone is confused…  No, I am not pregnant, not planning to, not hoping to be.)

Morning recap

You know when you were younger and your alarm went off in the morning and you sleepily think of the reasons to stay in bed?  Then your brain goes through the previous days events and if something great happened that day (i.e. a kiss, a new job, chocolate muffins) it gets you out of bed and puts a hop in your step?  Well, this morning I did that for the first time in a long time.  And I wanted to remember my list.

1. New wedding ring on my finger (I lost mine grrr)
2. Got a new outfit for Jess’s engagement party
3. I’m going to San Francisco by myself for a whole weekend!
4. No heartburn! 

And the thought that gave me the most joy…

All of my children slept through the night.   No pee, no asthma, no coughing, no nightmares.  Sigh.  This HAS to be a good day! 

(And it’s only going to be 90 degrees!!! I love anything that isn’t triple digits.)

Stupid in love

Several years ago Jason and I were traveling together pre-children and saw a wonderfully memorable man on a street corner waving an advertisement poster.  He was enthusiastically dancing to his music, wore cut of jean shorts a tank top and had stringy long blonde hair under a backwards facing hat.   Jason mentioned how stupid he was.  I on the other hand, got caught up in his sheer enjoyment, leaned across Jason and out the drivers side window with flailing arms, and gave him a big ‘woo hoo!’   The dancing man responded appropriately with  ‘hang loose’.   And then Jason muttered words that became a staple in our ability to make one another laugh.  “You’re stupid too.”    If you spend enough time with us, you might catch us lovingly exchange these words. 

Duly noted

 

These black plate holders were supposed to be returned when they didn’t quite fit what I needed them for…   Except they kept disappearing.   

They seem to fit very well in the boys holsters.   As you can tell, they don’t stray far from their owners. 

Earlier I found this pop tart with a hole clean through.  I wonder if the 2 are connected somehow…

It begins and ends at home

While reading a fellow bloggers’ recent posting I had that deep set heavy feeling in my chest that I needed to get out on paper. As a parent I have learned the hard way (is there any other way to learn?!) to change a child's inappropriate, negative, or bad behavior. I will openly admit I was a yeller. And I tended to focus on the negative. I still have my moments, but have learned the damaging affects it has on a child. I have seen in 2 years time, my child change from a sad, angry, and frustrated child 80% of the time, to a happy, pleasant, loving child %90 of the time. And though it has now become the norm and the days fly by without much notice, there are moments when he cracks a joke or quietly ruffles his sisters hair with a smile, that my heart is filled with joy and such gratitude.

“To change child's behavior...HUGS, KISSES, COMPLIMENTS: make them feel good about the RIGHT behavior. Give extra attention, slow down, play with them.” (Thank you again Rach- you are on a roll this week!)

AMEN. It changed my life and his.

his lashes

He was nearly asleep.  He had both hands up at his face and was gently pulling on his eyelashes.   Jared of course, woke up as soon as the car stopped and ran inside.  It reminded me of Jayce when he was a baby.  I would rock him to sleep and he had the longest eyelashes, and they were often a little awry, so as he fell into sleep I would softly pull on them to straighten them out.   It became a nightly ritual and as he got older I found that whenever he went to bed or was sleepy his hands would go to his eyelashes and just pull lightly on them.   They mimic even in their sleep.

Jared made it to age 3. Barely.

Jared is 3.  I must admit as I sit here preparing my thoughts on this little boy, I heaved a huge sigh.   It’s been quite a messy year…  

• Nail polish
• cut Lainy’s hair and his
• baby powder
• desitin
• toothpaste and water ‘soup’
• lip gloss
• baby shampoo
• mud
• vegetable oil
• any and all food imaginable
• very expensive allergy drops
• stung by a scorpion
• my toothbrush on the dogs butt

And the list goes on.   But if I put all of these things somehow on a scale and balanced them against the amount of joy and love I have received from having him in my life, there is no contest.  He is worth every second.  Happy Birthday Jared.  I love you.

A ton of crap

Our home teachers came by today and we were discussing the topic of women and how many of us feel such inadequacy and often compare ourselves to other women and mothers and how we often think the grass is greener on the other side.   My friend Rachel (who’s blog is now private so no link sorry!)  posted an amazing quote on that subject a while back and it has stuck with me.

The grass is not, in fact, always greener on the other side of the fence. Fences have nothing to do with it. The grass is greenest where it is watered. When crossing over fences, carry water with you and tend the grass wherever you may be.  -Robert Fulghum

Steve Mullenaux one of my home teachers posed a question this afternoon,

“Do you know why the grass is always greener on the other side?”  

His answer held more truth than I was ready for.  

“Because there is a whole lot of crap over there to fertilize it with.”       

Building stability

If you’ve ever bought a tract home you know that the most exciting part (for me) is picking out your colors and features.  How excited I was that I could pick out my very own house!   First, how big?  Ok, there are only 6 floor plans to choose from, but still I get to pick! And picking the colors!  Of course, I had to stay within the parameters of their color scheme.  So, ok, I could pick from 2 greens, cream, tan, and brown.  But still I was picking my own colors!  And then to pick out my upgrades!   Here is the small list of what you are allowed.  It was glorious.  Or was it?  

I kind of have that same feeling about the nation these days.  I feel as if we are being told,  “Here are your freedoms.  You can say whatever you want… as long as it is on this list.  You can think and feel as you please, but you must stay within these few topics and ideals. Freedom to bear arms….   wait, scratch that- we’re taking that from you.  Freedom of religion, but only in a way that won’t infringe on, or hurt the feelings of another, maybe we should take that too.   Congratulations on your new found freedoms.”

I am aware of the negativity in this post, I am so tired of feeling like our America we know and love and are so blessed to be a part of, is being transformed and crumbling before our very eyes. 

4 years ago we began the plans for our current home.  No rules or exceptions unless it was for the safety and stability of the structure,  we drew it, redrew it, until it was what we wanted.   We painted it, and I wanted a different color so we re-painted it!   It took a while, it was frustrating, it was hard work and no it isn’t perfect.  But it was ours.   And this is how I feel about America.  The harder we work, the more we put into it, the better it will be.  Perfect?   Not by a long shot.  But worth it.